sometimes i am happy and sometimes i am sad but maybe i guess that’s what its like being a human with emotions.
tonight i was mostly happy, although it is sad for me to think of all of the plans i had with ethan and how they disappeared the minute our “us” became a “me” and a “you” and how being an adult is sometimes hard and painful and guess what i’m not even a full adult yet.
It is hard. It is also hard to pick up your phone on autopilot four months later your fingers still remembering what it was to have someone to tell your everything to. But it is easy to love friends and to embrace them and let them in and let life in and realize that everything is going to be ok, even when it looks as if it will never be.
with that, good night (morning, oops)
The books that will move you, inspire you, make you cry, make you think, make you laugh. Are there any books that you would add?
SOMEONE go to Europe with me.
I have family in Berlin and we can stay with them for part of the trip? (I COME WITH PERKZ)
LOVE ME PLEASE
reapplying to medical school before you’ve heard from this round of applications seems pretty counterintuitive and also stressful and dumb and unnecessary.
have found their way home and into my arms (legs)
along with other forgotten items (a towel, a cute dress!)
and toiletries (and an empty tube of toothpaste, honestly, fuck you)
Today has been a good day. I feel free.
While it is unpleasant, I do appreciate the experiences that allow me to crystalize parts of myself. You are always learning from your experiences, but sometimes something will come along and kick you until you figure something out about yourself that you hadn’t previously known or accepted.